Sunday, October 30, 2011

You could stay and watch me fall, and of course I'll ask for help. 

I was never supposed to feel this way, ever again. What did I used to do to combat this? Oh no Tia, you can't do that. You're not that person anymore. Are you sure? Why do I feel like this then? He's not around anymore anyway. Or do you feel like travelling 300km right now? I know you're right. But what will I do now? I have nothing to shield me from the hole anymore. I can't answer that question. Don't you still have Jacob? I think I do. Unless Edward comes back, you'll be fine. Will I really? I promise. I don't believe you. I didn't think you would. But you're stronger now. I don't have a reason to keep him out anymore. You have to. You know what will happen if you let him in again. I don't want that? No, you don't. We could start again? We could be Edward and Bella... Like we used to. Don't say that. You have so many other options. You have a Mike, and an Eric. Even a Tyler. Do I? You know you do. What should I do? Tell me what to do. Listen to Jacob. Jacob sucks. Vampires suck. Nice pun. Thanks. 

Mike, Eric and Tyler aren't Edward. I know, that's why I suggested them. You know what I mean. Forget about Edward. No. Please? No. Why not? Because I can't trust anyone anymore. Not even you. If I can't trust, then it means I can be with Edward with ease. No it doesn't. Don't do something you'll regret. Do you love Jacob? Yes. But that is a moot point, it's very mean of you to bring that up. I have to play hard ball here. Just shut up. You've made your mind up haven't you? Yes I have. Are you going to tell me? No, you'll have to watch and see. Watch me go. Fly. Forget the world again. Like I used to. I need to forget. So much pain. From every angle. The pain in my chest is back again. Go and see Jacob. He's your own personal sun, remember? He is a bit cold right now. I can't seem to warm him up. You're going to drown if the hole in your chest is open for too long. I know. What are you going to do? Maybe I just shouldn't do anything. Keep fighting. I can't fight it anymore. I'm not like a car you can just fix. I'll always be broken. Don't you Twilight me. It's the best way I know how to describe it. You know I'm Bella. Through and through. 

I feel sick from the pain. I have to go. No, don't go. I'm going. 
Are you okay? No.
  

Monday, October 10, 2011

Mr. MM; Being a Winner.

I must say, I am in love with Christina Parie. 
She was amazing tonight, and every other night.
 
I let it fall, my heart. And as it fell, you rose to claim it. It was dark and I was over, until you kissed my lips and you saved me. My hands, they're strong; but my knees were far too weak to stand in your arms without falling to your feet. 

But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew. All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true. And the games you'd play, you would always win, always win. But I set fire to the rain, watched it pour as I touched your face. Let it burn while I cryed 'cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name.

When laying with you, I could stay there; close my eyes. Feel you here, forever. You and me together, nothing gets better. 

But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew. All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true. And the games you'd play, you would always win, always win. But I set fire to the rain, watched it pour as I touched your face. Let it burn while I cryed 'cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name. I set fire to the rain, and I threw us into the flames. Where I felt something die, 'cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time. 

Sometimes I wake up by the door, now that you're gone; must be waiting for you. Even now when it's already over, I can't help myself from looking for you.  

I set fire to the rain, watched it pour as I touched your face. Let it burn while I cryed 'cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name. I set fire to the rain, and I threw us into the flames. Where I felt something die, 'cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time.  

Let it burn.
  

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?